This is the one post I never thought I would be writing, or at least not THIS soon. I did not want to write about it because I want to live life on the “Sunny Side” but it is part of life so here it is…and hopefully just writing it will help me heal.
Yesterday, my sweet cat Izzie went to heaven (yes, I believe they go to heaven and are waiting for us there. They are getting all of the lovings and petting they need, and more, from Jesus. They are running around and playing with each other). I’m devastated. I miss her. Everything I do reminds me of her – our morning wake-up routine, the “I’m home from work” routine, our bedtime routine…EVERYTHING!
Just a brief background: She was perfectly healthy and playful, up until the night she got “sick”. We had played the night before and she ate and came to bed, like always. Sometime in the night, she got sick. The next morning, she didn’t want to eat (she loved to eat) so I took her to the vet. The vet said, something neurological, probably a stroke. I am so very thankful that she was never hurting and never in pain. The vet did give her different medicines to see if they would help, and I was willing to try because I wanted her better and back at home. Unfortunately, they did not help and “the decision” was made. I have cried uncontrollably, multiple times. She was my baby. I’m already missing her at night, in the morning when I wake up, and when I get home from work. I’m dreading Saturday mornings without the “eating breakfast -watching Amazon Prime-giving/getting kitty lovings” routine.
While I am sad, I am also thankful. She was not sick a long time. She did not suffer, and she basically went to sleep, which is exactly what I wanted…she was resting comfortably the entire time. I am also thankful that she had the best life. I know this because I loved on her (probably when she didn’t really care for it at times), I spoiled her (she was spoiled rotten and I would/will admit it), and I made sure she knew how much she was loved. She is already missed and will be missed for a long time but she is now happy and playing with Annie, Buddy, Mia, and Missie, and getting all of the lovings she could ever want from Jesus.
I know it will get easier but I still need prayers.
